《单行街。仪 ♥》: The Confession of June

Greetings readers. Rise & shine. Went to bed early last night due to the lacking of sleep for the past few nights. It's been a month since I last updated my blog. I've been told by my friends that I did not update my blog for so long. Yeah, life have been terribly hectic & busy for the past one month. Both good things and bad things happened and my mood also been very much affected by both things happened in my life. It's true that I have been claiming that I would like improve on how I handle my emotions. However, it's always easily to be said than done. I always feel regret after bursting out when I'm mad. I always regret when I'm overly react when good things happened as well. Is this really life? And, I should just live my life to the fullest?

Not everyday is a good day but I have always been hoping for a better tomorrow. I was once heard a very good preaching in Singapore. The main point is about never let your anger fill you until the sun set. That means you can have your day to be screwed up with all the unwanted things to happen, and yes you have the right to be super duper mad about someone, something and etc. However, when the sun is set, everything should leave behind. It teaches us do not bring the unwanted events to the next day and it gives us one whole night to get over it. The next day, when the sun rise, it's a brand new day with new hope. I have always wanted to practice this in my life but somehow or rather found it hard to be done compare to contemplate. Perhaps, I just need more willpower.

The month of June makes me realize that leadership is really wide knowledge to be learnt & apply throughout one's life. It is not merely about speaking management when comes to the real life dealing with leadership. June awakes me that I'm not a good leader! I always think I would possess the right leadership skills because I have been trained by my father since I'm very young. I have disappointed him in handling with leadership issue for the past one month. I do not have what it takes to be a good leader and ended up making something happened that I'm absolutely feeling grief over it. I have been intensively searching for good titles of books that how a good leader should be since then and also been waiting replies from my mentor for his recommendations on books that I must get & read rapidly. Knowledge from books are just part of the guidance for me to know and it takes a lifetime to apply on it. Till now, sometimes I still cannot accept that what had happened when I sit down quietly & peacefully in the room contemplate about it. Perhaps, I never knew that this could happen.

Regarding on my academic, this semester has got only 3 papers. Burden seems to be less at first, very soon realized that it was never easy for a final year student life. It is indeed true that less papers have more free time to be spent. It requires discipline to handle your life and time. Time mismanagement would make you feel regret at the moment of waiting for the results to be announced. There's no point making resolutions and do not commit in realizing it. God only help those who help themselves first, so I do not want to be one of those people who do things that I will regret later.

Alright, time for some sharing of good news that happened end for the end of June. I'm very proud to be chosen to represent my university to go Korea for a language & culture exchange for approximately 2 weeks plus. Thank God, I was being the only one selected from my campus and one more person from PJ Campus. I admit that I am not one of those Korean drama fans, and I do not listen to Korean songs and what a coincidence that I do not like to eat Korean food as well. Ha-ha! Yes, you are right. Nothing excites me much about Korea but since there was this application for undergraduates to go Korea, I was thinking why not give it a try. I downloaded the form and filled it up. There was a need for the applicants to write a not less than 200 words essay regarding why are you interested with the program. I "accidentally" wrote a little too long until 1026 words for the submission of the application. After a week or more, I was awoke by the officers that inform me that I'm being shortlisted & need to go for interview or something. I slept very late the night before, and the officer called around 9.30am. I was very blur and cannot really recalled what she had told me. I went back to bed for about 1 minute and paused for 0.005 seconds and tell myself: Hey! you're being shortlisted to interview for Korea program! Then, only I started jumping up & down and get excited. I went through the interview and to summarize everything, I'm being selected. Words cannot express the feeling of excitement of being selected. I share this good news to my parents and they came down on the weekend to visit me. Dad's advice was must behave very well and do not lose the reputation of my university & also the country. I'm gonna work my ass off for this semester to repay my dad for sponsoring me the air-ticket to Korea. Enough said.