First Month of the First Year of the First Decade

31st January 2010 indicates that the first month of the year 2010 had already comes to the end. So, what are you guys up to for the January month? Still in holiday mood? Or still cannot adapt to things happening around you guys? My bad, how could I forgot to greet my fellow readers, friends, family. HELLO! A warm welcome to all of you.

For me, the first month of the first year of the first decade didn't really started off that well for me.

It's only the first month, I have already faced with disappointment while I recalled back I said that I had a fruitful year for the previous year. My last semester results came out to be a little disappointed and I was seriously did it with all my best. Well, since it's already passed, I just want to say I already get over it and I'm not a cynical type of person. I'm not going to blame the world, blame my university, blame my lecturers & tutors, blame the marking system, blame the whatever that you people name it. All I can blame is MYSELF. Perhaps I didn't work hard enough for it and that's why I still not able to achieve what I've aimed. Just a short advice, always look at yourself before putting the blame of others. There's no reason or logic that a lecturer will be able to fail you if you have all the points. Screw the probability distribution curve! We, the undergraduates of my university, know from the very start the probability distribution curve had exists, and why are you not putting more effort to get into the top or the minimal 5% of A students but instead keep blaming? I starts to hate people who are being cynical, as if the whole world owes them a lot.

Apart from that, I'm having plans in mind to be executed for this new semester of mine. I have goals to be achieved. And, I'm committing 110% to make sure it will comes true this time. Everyone has a dream to be pursed in life, be it anything; but what it really matters is actually bringing the dream to life. I'm going to strive to get it this time!

Let me share with you all something about the studying/education/undergraduate cultures here. People tend to be selfish that consequences to trying their very best to keep others not know that they are studying, revising, rushing for assignment, and etc. I seriously can't understand what's their true motive behind all this but I have actually feeling no shameful to tell others that I'm studying, preparing for tutorials, revising and etc if they really ask me. You see, these people are worried that if you know that they are studying, they are going to study also and will be ahead of them. What a damn joke! I feel this is so wrong.

In my point of view, I LOVE to motivate others to work hard together with me. What is it to be worried of helping others if they are really going to study if you tell them you are studying? I find there's nothing wrong. In fact, you are doing a good deed for doing so. Maybe this is what people called "kiasu". It's funny that this could actually happened to a small town like this that lives people from all over Malaysia. Get real, people. This is not the right way of living the life you want. I know it's not easy to change this kind of culture but I'm so going to take up the challenge to change it. Life is about sharing; sharing is caring. We should share what it's really to others and hope they could be benefit it from there too.

Overall, the past 4 weeks was generally not too bad except from hectic life. Do you believe that I'm actually enjoying being a workaholic and I'm so enjoy to hectic lifestyle rather than being too free that it tortures me so much. I can never easy to fall asleep the day I don't use my brain to think hard. 2 days back I spent some quality with my dear for some Chinese New Year shopping and I didn't really use my brain. Guess what, I cannot sleep at night. I went to bed at 12am plus and woke up at 2am. I thought it was 5am but it turns out that I can not get back to sleep. Call me crazy, I would be lovely to admit that I am.

Coming back to my family: for the first time ever in my life, my dad didn't really comment much about my results. I know that he was having high expectations for my previous semester results. It didn't turn out to be what he expects too. He didn't lecture me or nag me for not getting the grade he wants. In contrary, he advised me work harder for this semester. One short simple line like that from him is sufficient to make me guilty like I had never been before. So, if one day people telling you: Hey, do you know Kevin is working so hard for his studies? I'm going to tell you please don't trust him/her as they are SO WRONG. I don't work hard for my studies, I work FUCKING hard for my studies!

Not much to say, I supposed. Well, 14 days to Chinese New Year. I'm looking forward to have a reunion with my family as I'm kinda suffered homesick last few weeks FOR THE VERY FIRST time in my life. Also, going to take a very short break during Chinese New Year to temporary leave my my work aside for my family. My CNY shopping was so so, managed to grab some clothes. Okay, I know if my dear is reading this, she would strongly disagree with this. I've got myself some of my favorite designer labels clothes. Screw the price, I'm more of a quality-seeking type of person. :D

That's for now. I shall blog again soon when I'm free. Perhaps it would be during CNY.

Cheers.

P/s: as for the pictures, I shall upload them only when I have the time.